nada dura

yes i wont be stupid thinking that everything will be fine.

i know my journey isnt smooth at all. i really suffered a lot lately and i cant explain how much i've been going through. i dont know what to do with my current situation and i'm on the verge of getting out of it soon. i want things to work out like before, i cant help to be sad when everything keep flashing back and it's like a same old story repeating it. yes i'm not what you want and this make you to change. now, you aint saying anything about it but you know that i cant hold on any longer if you aint doing anything about this too. everytime when i think what you've done to me i just feel utterly sad. 

why cant you just give me a hand, lift me up and say that you will not hurt me again. i may be happy infront of you all this while but at times when we're heading home i know that you're not gonna be the one that love me wholeheartedly. i care for you so much and i'm just afraid that you'll leave but now we're nothing to each other anymore. last week, you've been nice and being a sweet guy by doing everything that i want and making the extra miles to do things for me and i'm really happy when you piggy back me to cook the noodles! the way we communicate can be the best period i ever had with you all this while. you're treating me so good by waking up and doing the things that i need to prepare. buying those little things and knowing that i love to take photos with you but you dont really love to take nevertheless you did it too... 
i'm really happy for this 11days. thanks for everything.