why cant everything be as simple as i thought or lets say easy to deal with.
this point of time i'm always feeling down it's like "why the hell must i go through this shit and i'm facing all alone" been a month since i know about it and i'm feeling horrible till now and there's no point showing out how WTF i feel cos i'm always putting on a smile no matter what. how can i ever trust anyone anymore?! i'm trying to forgive and forget but it's only for the naive.
i know that now i aint happy when i'm alone because everything keep flashing and running through in my mind i hate to explain to anyone and not all of you know how i really feel. i dont wish for anything i'm like the other girls out there who just need someone to be honest,sincere and faithful that's all. am i asking too much for it ? i doubt so. went to see the cards that you gave me and all those words that you wrote really made me smile and at the same time i'm crying in my heart saying why cant we turn back time and stay that way... you've been doing your job well in the end you took the wrong step and it destroy you and basically me too. i still care for you and i've to pretend that we're fine infront of your friends. after all i'm still a fool waiting for everything that cant go back to the way it is before and it really hurts me a lot when i know there's more.
there's love but there's pain . nothing helps it's only you as you're always someone thats important to me. i'm able to calm down when you're here at the same time i cant help it to be sad too... is this for real ? all this while you've been doing so much for me but we're nobody to each other.
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