nada dura

you promised that you wouldnt and if you wanted to, you long ago will do it.

eventually, you did it. i'm so afraid for the next few years. 

we'll be in different path and there's more to come. 

things wouldnt be the same anymore. its only a temporarily time that you're not going to do it. it's in you and it's just a one whole cycle once again. 

i'm going to fall even harder and the blow will be double too. 

after all, you were right it will affect us in future and it's not going to be healthy. i cant seems to hate you i'm behaving like the same old me back then.  

i really wished that i could hate you and cut all my contacts with you but i cant. 

i envy her really, at least she can be the one leaving and not looking back but i'm just some weak ass not doing this. i want to have a new life a life without you and someone out there that will treat me well enough i dont ask for much. 

i know that i wouldnt be the one for you at the very end so why waste each other time right? we both knew about it. i'm the one who didnt want to let go thats all. you'll be fine with it if i do. 

i shouldnt love you so much because ended up hurting myself so much. 

so many years and this is what i got from you.